You built me up and broke me down...
Then watched and stared as I fell down...
You played this game where you swore no shame...
but turns out you thought the whole thing was lame...
You say you and i have just wasted our time...
you say your sorry then you sigh...(but then why do i see you
staring at me in the corner of your eye?)
If the feelings gone away...
words wont stop you tomorrow or today...
As i sit here and write...
i wonder why, why that night?...
So here i am again...
fighting the battle until the end...
You broke my heart, you say im smart...
and that theres no way we will ever be apart...
So now im left here...
staring straight into my mirror...
...at what ive become...
and i wish i could run...
...and wondering why
all i do is cry?...
Now i have theses scars, and they arent from the past...
they came from the one i thought that would last...
I know i say i wont...
and i hear others say dont...
Nothing is even clear...
-my fantasies are now my fears...
I guess im falling...
and though i keep calling...
-i try to keep going...
with tomorrow, never knowing...
It could be sad, it could be bad...
it could be worse than the days ive had...
I know you dont know
so i have to let you know...
Its all been so crazy
and you have not been lazy....
Theres no way, that i will ever be able to repay-
the way you have been there for me the past few days...
It all feels so right
when i call you at night
You dont really know how i feel
which makes everything so unreal...
You were there caring
while he sat staring...
You really were there
when no one else cared...
Like i said nothing is exactly clear
so im sorry when i sometimes fear...
You just let me sit and cry
while i bitch and moan bout how i miss this guy...
you always knew just what to say
in time of need and pray...
If i ever just go away, just dissapear
please dont worry, please fear...
I've delt with a lot of shit
but ive got to say this has got to be it...
we share many things you see
like those little "one things," you and me...
I cant just keep up
i feel lost and currupt...
Someone told me that love would save us
but how can that be, i mean look what it gave us...
I hide behind this mask
and all the people ask...
-how are you, how have you been
and i give them all the same fake grin...
Everythings a lie
they have no clue, what exactly im going through...
-you keep assureing me that you wont let go
atleast until im ok, and that you know...
Hes got me crying again
all i can do is wonder and wait until this ends...
-I know i shouldnt be looking over my shoulder
that love from my past aint coming any closer...
I need some time to tell you how i feel
but just because it might take awhile doesnt mean that it isnt real...
They say "life is what you make it"
then why am i the one to have to fake it?...
I know i should move
but its so hard with that old song...
While we were together
he told me he would never...
I wanna forget him
close my eyes and resent him...
But i cant and i dont know why
when i think of him all i ever wanna do is cry...
